It has been 2 months after my operation back in April and one month rest in May.
I was back in work and back in blogging.
Sadly I bring no good news as always to my readers.
There may be thoughts to post but as writing is a way for me to feel better, I do what I usually do.. word vomit!
I can never really say that I can lead my life. Look at where I am now.
I'm starting all over again. And I do not know what to expect.
Perhaps it is indeed good to start again. There is a new feeling and unknown expectations along the way that I may actually look forward to.
I guess the solution to boredom is change :)
I have to admit that I was getting bored at work and in life. Coz nothing is happening so I'm now getting what I really want hahaha which is adventure and heartbreaks that comes with it.
It was love that brought me back to life so I expect more on love to keep me going really.
There is nothing else that can inspire me but love. And sadly I'm losing the love in my life and soon it will be boring again. I know...
My thoughts on waiting for something that is worthwhile then.
I guess I'm not that person who waits. I can see that when I've been kept waiting for a new s3 phone.
But not only in getting the material things in life but also in the areas of love.
I do not think I can wait for love to come coz if you do not have it then you don't.
Although it is true that there are situations that can make someone wait on love
but what is the point of waiting if you do not know what lies ahead?
It will always be a gamble for me when it comes to love.
Coz for me , if you can take a risk on love with me then we can be strong enough to take on any challenge that will come.
I need to see your courage when it comes to love. Courage and sincerity are two things that amazes me really.
The act of confidence that you know the two of you can make it? Ruling out the cons you have in mind.
This is because nothing is perfect. You can't wait for the ideal set up for a relationship to come really.. coz nothing is perfect for me.
I guess it will be difficult if you did take a risk. Something that I already did on someone and I'm still willing to do on anyone I love so deeply.
I took the risk because it was boring then and she showed me that she loved me. :)
But eventually she stopped fighting with me. So I was left alone and it was hard.
I guess taking a risk is good only if you do it with someone and so you are not alone.
Ok heart check! What do I have inside my heart? I guess nothing now.
I do not think I can love someone who did not stand by me. Coz I need someone who will defend me against the big bad wolf :)
I'm tired of loving someone who doesn't want my love at all. It is a sickening idea that I will not ever do again.
So this ends here.
I have no one but the Lord and I wish I can do His will.
You know.. maybe fall for a man but right now.. there is no man and there is no love.
They always tell me to give it up.
I guess I have given up on this love now.
Things are too ugly to make beautiful unless she showed me how much she loved me.
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