Monday, November 14, 2011, 12:39 AM
What dreams may come
This movie has always been meaningful to me because it tells something about depression and how a person can be in pain and in hell.
Sometimes I want to just scream and tell the world what part of my depression do you not understand?
People would always want to cheer you up when you are feeling down but as for me this is not what I need. How can I be happy when I'm not?
It has always been easy to tell me to step out of the dark and meet the sunshine blah blah.
Go help yourself stuff will not work for me because I do not wish to step out of the dark. I'm in my suffering and yes I am in the dark and the least that you can do is to stay with me in the dark until I have the courage to step out of it.
Is it hard to understand that I just want you to stay with me? I just want you to be with me?
Have you not remembered how I stayed with you when you were in pain? I never told you to get over something did I? I just listened and stayed with you all night. And now that I am suffering it hurts to know that no one understands and you have not the compassion at all to see it.
How could you?
I needed a friend and you gave me an enemy.
I needed love and you gave me hate.
How will I ever accept such bad fate?
I awakened from a very bad dream
I saw you so far away
And I saw myself in pain
Alone and suffering
All that is good did not last
For you choose to listen to those
who do not care
And so you turn out to be just like them
without a care
Cold
without a heart
And without me
All I ever ask is that you stay
Don't leave me
Don't leave me in my pain
Don't leave me in my confusion
Don't hurt me
Just don't hurt me anymore
Please I beg you
I never wanted to fall for you
And I never planned to be with you
I never wanted friendship to end
And I never imagined it would end
I never planned a future with you
Coz I never planned to lose you
I never planned anything
my heart just simply wants to tell:
I love you
these words that brought me to hell
How painful it is to wake up
a nightmare coz I don't have you
How difficult is it to find peace
if sleep has been deprived from myself
my heart sings not a melody
thy lullaby hast lost its tune
my heart it aches in melancholy
thy presence hast lost its way
for you never knew where and how
to find me
And you will never will
unless you search with all your heart
