New Sunday
I love Sundays because it is quiet outside. Sunday is a time to rest for everyone
A day in a week and a time to worship God and to reflect His goodness.
This Sunday is not like any Sundays coz I went to church with my mother. And something unexplainable happened coz I cried before God even if I tried not to. I do not wish to cry coz I find it embarrassing. I do not wish to cry because I wanted to be tough before God. But there I found myself still crying.
I was there crying and telling God I'm sorry. I'm sorry because I have gone out of the pleasantness of being that humble and faithful servant and decided to be rebellious and disobedient.
For many years I did things my way. I was so free to do evil in the sight of men and the Lord's. I am without conscience to even stop. And today I went back to the church where my faithfulness started and I cried because I miss the Lord and myself when I was born again.
When I was worshiping, God reminded me of the parable of the lost sheep. The shepherd may have countless sheep but when one is lost the shepherd will go out of his way just to find that one lost sheep.
God is our good shepherd and He is the shepherd of my soul. And I am that lost sheep in the wilderness. But He found me when everyone else is so busy to care. He found me and took me in His care. Right there I cried a great deal because I felt God's love and His faithfulness.
And even if I am in pain for choosing to love someone, I know I will be able to find my strength in God.
Being a Christian is not easy. And loving a woman and being a Christian is even more not easy.
In my struggles I pray that God will help me. I pray that He will not let me go.
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Cheryl Ching
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9intervals, the idea is derived from a cat having nine lives. I guess, I don't have to tell you how much I love cats!
We've been through intervals in this lifetime. Guess, I'm lucky to be alive. I don't think I would be lucky the next time. But nevertheless, we have our intervals. A certain episode that we remember in the past that affects our future. Or maybe just something that we can learn from. A little something to look back to.
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