Have you ever been in love? Have you ever been in love with a friend? I guess you cant be in love and be friends with the person if that person only wants friendship for the two of you. I guess this is one of the most difficult place I can be right now. How can I be in love ?
How can I be n love when all I know is to fool around crash and burn.
But you... you just did it.. and I just can't help it. I can't help but fall in love with you because all along when I was fooling around I know I have a friend who lives an exemplary life.
And I guess all I ever wanted is to have someone who can stop me from fooling around. Someone like you to be around with so I can slowly changed my bad habits and be like you.
But now I'm so hurt I need to leave. I'm hurting because you do not care and you continue to ignore my pain.
Can't you see I need you as a friend to help me through this. I want you to be there for me in my struggles to keep our friendship. But you chose not to care and it hurts.
Sometimes I do not think I am in love because there are just so many imperfections and differences between us. It will take a big heart for me to accept.
Sometimes I wish I never would have spoken with you so you will only remain as my crush and not a friend.
But why is it that when I want you as a friend you are too busy to care?
I don't know where to lay my head anymore. Looking back I pity myself for being that fool to have ever tried to make friends with you when you were running away and I was always chasing and keeping up with you.
I'm so tired.
What will make me come back to you is only a lie that I believe in. A lie that says you are the only person in this world who I can share my life with. Which gives me a reason to want you so badly.
But you just don't have a care and it is killing me.
Things changed and the longer we've known each other the harder it gets.
I just need a place to lay my head so I'm writing again. I'm sorry if I hurt you. But we can't be friends. We can't not unless I managed to get rid of my feelings for you.
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Cheryl Ching
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9intervals, the idea is derived from a cat having nine lives. I guess, I don't have to tell you how much I love cats!
We've been through intervals in this lifetime. Guess, I'm lucky to be alive. I don't think I would be lucky the next time. But nevertheless, we have our intervals. A certain episode that we remember in the past that affects our future. Or maybe just something that we can learn from. A little something to look back to.
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