I'm writing this blog mainly because I want to reflect and say thanks to God.
Being off from work gave me time to think things over. And I have to say there were several realizations that came to me. And these are..
I'm getting old. I'm 27 turning 28 next year. What have I achieved that I can even consider as worthy and acceptable before God?
I remembered myself when I was in college. I was struggling and striving really hard to graduate thinking that things will go well after graduation. So my dream then was to graduate to solve my problems.
Now that I've been working for 3 straight years I can say that my problems were not solved by money. To be honest I have not saved a penny for the last 2 years work.
Now that I'm working I got another dream which I think will solve my financial problems. This is my dream to work abroad.
Now, that I've come this far.. I have come to realize that everyday is what matters. It is not my dream to get to where I want to be. It is my everyday relationship with the people like my parents, friends and especially God.
If I am to die, will my dreams matter? Will I be happy if I have reached them? The thing is I think I have achieved some of them already.. but looking back, they did not give me that much joy. There is no peace and joy because I was so busy running my life I forgot to take the time already to stop and spend my time wisely with God and love ones.
So now the month of September 2011 is about to end. Boi was that fast!!! What have I done? I have done nothing I'm proud of.
I know I have my goals set for year 2011 and sad to say I don't think I will succeed in meeting them anymore.
There was only one goal that I managed to pursue in a daily basis and that is to lose weight. Now I'm getting the secret to succeed in every endeavor. And the secret is to just work on every goal in a daily basis.
I am now setting a new goal in my life. And I am happy to share that with this goal... there is no loss.
I have decided to pray everyday. Very simple and yet unaccomplished by myself at times.
I have decided to talk to God everyday and I know this is what I want.
I thought about the remaining years that I have left to walk in this earth. If I am to live, then I am to pray everyday. This I consider an achievement.
Next goal is to continue reading the bible.
I believe that God will take care of the rest of my goals as long as I trust in Him.
Looking back I am very happy to share that the Lord has been faithful.
I may not have achieved that much. I may have been very foolish and stupid. Who would have put up with someone like me? I have caused pain and hurt people especially my mom for being very stubborn and yet the Lord showed me His faithfulness and goodness.
I thank the Lord for opening my heart to sensitivity. To be able to ask for forgiveness to my mom whom I have hurt.
I thank Him for His goodness and mercy. Every time I feel so drained because of the pressures in life, I just let go and cry and I know He was there. My tears were not in vain. For I feel relieved to have cried to Him.
The Lord is good and no matter where life takes me.. He will be my strength.
The Lord is good and I know nothing I do is worthy of His goodness. The least that I can do is to thank Him. And be glad that He had made a way for me to get to know Him.
I pray for every reader of this blog to get to know Jesus. I know my relationship with God is not perfect and I miss those days when I was just like a child trusting Him. But then again there is no other way but Jesus.
Many more challenges, heartbreaks, pain and trials will come my way. My only prayer is that the Lord will not let me go.
I wish to praise the Lord for the rest of my life. I wish to worship Him.
I wish to love Him and fall in love with Him.
Thank you Jesus for being our God. Praise the Lord for the Lord is good.
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