Wednesday, September 21, 2011, 5:12 PM
On suffering
I will unashamedly say that I am currently suffering from a skin disease called Pityriasis Rosea.
They say it is viral caused by environment change and maybe stress. Whatever it is the cause, I am still suffering.
Every time I look at myself naked in front of a mirror this is what I see.
It is horrible. Every time my mother sees it we both feel awful.
But what can I do? I do not even know how I got it.
I've tasted sufferings in this lifetime and this disease is another tough one that came my way.
I'm writing about my present suffering because I do not know how to feel better.
I am even uncertain if the scars will completely go away. Will they ever be permanent to remind me to take care of myself? Will the scars remind me to put up a pleasant face every time I go to strange lands? I'm saying this coz I think someone did get mad at me and probably bewitched me so I'm now suffering. I dunno.
The amount of ugliness that I see in my skin only equates to the amount of ugliness that I had displayed before these people for me to deserve this curse.
I'm so bitter.And also sad.
If only the person I love would care a bit about my sufferings then I would have suffered gladly.
I'm suffering again and I have no idea if you are with or without a care.
If you care ... please let me know.. I need you.
It is true and I believe that a little love will go a long way.
In my suffering I pray that the Lord will send relief. May He send an angel to aide me in my pain. May the Lord send you to comfort me.
