If there is something that I miss about us then that would be the "sharing" of ideas and stories that we used to have. I really miss just the two of us drama. I guess, it makes me feel good to know that I have someone who trust me. It makes me feel good to care for someone who I adore.
I don't think I will ever get tired of hearing you talk about the same subject repeatedly. But you ended it. We stopped our conversations. So I start missing you. Not because we no longer hang out together but because you stopped sharing your heart to me. It is the heart of the conversation that I was looking for. Gossips, banter and chitchats are boring. I'd rather be quiet and sit beside you and say no word than communicate and be lead nowhere. I'd rather watch you than talk.
Being with you makes me happy. I guess it makes me happy coz I know there is nothing in this world I can keep from you. I can be myself. I can be honest. I guess, this is the main reason why I love you so much. It is this fact that made me love and treasure you so much.
But lately I don't think we get each other anymore. I don't think I can even call you friend anymore. You seem to make me feel bad about myself now when I'm with you. It was like everything I do irritates you. And it is crushing me so I need to stay away from you now.
I need to stay away so you can no longer hurt me.
All I ever wanted was to make a connection so I can feel alive again. And maybe in a lifetime we are only given chances and short episodes to be with someone we can connect with. And our chance had already passed so it is time to move on.
I want you to know that I will always miss you. I wish you would come back. But maybe it is for the best for you to thrive and live your own life now. I hope my absence will not cause any damage. I don't think it will to you.
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Cheryl Ching
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9intervals, the idea is derived from a cat having nine lives. I guess, I don't have to tell you how much I love cats!
We've been through intervals in this lifetime. Guess, I'm lucky to be alive. I don't think I would be lucky the next time. But nevertheless, we have our intervals. A certain episode that we remember in the past that affects our future. Or maybe just something that we can learn from. A little something to look back to.
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