On loving you
To begin with, if I like or love someone, I am the type who will probably express it or share it. I do not know why I am like this but most likely.. I will have to share my happiness and kilig to people I know.
Is this bad?
Perhaps, I should keep this crush to myself so it will be special.
Perhaps, I blew my chance for friendship which makes it sad.
Perhaps..
Im blogging coz I want to say that there might be occassions when it seemed like I have expectations when I'm loving but I really want to stress that I don't.
I just want acceptance. No need to reciprocate. Acceptance with respect and please no rejection. haha! But is this possible? What if the person does not really want to be loved right? So the answer is just to stay away. Right!
But since this blog is for you my reader, there is still something I want to point out and that is on the subject of loving you.
On loving you, I do not care whethere or not you will like me back. I do not think I'm wasting my time loving you. I don't! And I hate to know that there are people who will only love because they will be loved. This is not the kind of love that I want to give.
I do not hope that you will ever love me back. I do not care about myself, what I will get or will not get out of loving you. I don't.
I care about one thing and that is loving you. I love you and that is what I want to do. Simple to me yet complicated to you perhaps.
I just want to love..... you because it makes me happy.
But you have to tell me if this is not making you happy though.
Is it love if I care about myself? The whole point of loving is directed to the object, the one I love. So tell me? Can you accept this love? Will you accept my love?
This love.. if you wanna know what it is? I do not know either. I do not know if this is romantic love or friendship love. More like friendship I guess because I do not want to lose..... you.... I want to keep you as my friend..
But tell me if I need to stop loving you. Should I stop loving you ? Because right now, I can't.
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Cheryl Ching
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9intervals, the idea is derived from a cat having nine lives. I guess, I don't have to tell you how much I love cats!
We've been through intervals in this lifetime. Guess, I'm lucky to be alive. I don't think I would be lucky the next time. But nevertheless, we have our intervals. A certain episode that we remember in the past that affects our future. Or maybe just something that we can learn from. A little something to look back to.
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