Of loving and being loved
There are lots of things going on in my head. Lots of memories coming into my senses so I don't know how to start this blog. So I'm just gonna write and go with the flow.. whatever comes to mind.
I woke up tonight feeling empty. I was trying to get some sleep and I couldn't sleep because I felt empty and alone. Like there was something missing in my life. Like I can't ignore it anymore. It is in my heart and in my being and I know what it is - I know I need God.
You know the feeling when you don't know if you will ever wake up again the next day? I felt like that many times when I'm afraid to sleep and close my eyes because I don't know if there is tomorrow. Besides, I feel so tired living my everyday life. Tired coz there are days when I'm burned out already so I ask why I need to live this life? Why can't I just meet my creator? What is the point of living?
So I need to live my life and along the way I met people. People who taught me stuff. And one of these stuff I learned is to care for others. I learned this from my missionary friends coz they were always taking care of me. I wonder where they are right now? The point is.. I know why I exist but sometimes I go my way.
I exist because there are people out there for me to love and care for. I live to worship God.
I live for God. And so everyday counts. Everyday is an opportunity to serve God and love others.
And so I prayed when I couldn't sleep coz I was afraid that God must have abandoned me already because I was completely ignoring Him. And then I cried when I tried to pray. And then I didn't feel alone anymore after crying. Coz I always believed that God is there when I cry. So I'm glad I prayed and cried out to God for Him to help and saved me. Thank God for prayers.
Lately, there is this person who I believed was sent to me by God so I can care for her. So I can be there for her. I want her to know God. And one of the reasons why I'm awake right now is for me to download songs that I will be sending to her.I just love being there for her. Even if this may be wrong.
Now, I wanna take the chance to thank the one person who stick around when I was in deep shit. She is one of the people I call my best friend. She never made me feel like I'm some trasher without a future. She made me feel loved. She cheered me up when I was down. She is always there. So I wanna thank my friend Cherry.
Because of you I can care for others because you showed me how. You literally stick with me through thick and thin. You are a true friend and we love you. I love you wabbit :)
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Cheryl Ching
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9intervals, the idea is derived from a cat having nine lives. I guess, I don't have to tell you how much I love cats!
We've been through intervals in this lifetime. Guess, I'm lucky to be alive. I don't think I would be lucky the next time. But nevertheless, we have our intervals. A certain episode that we remember in the past that affects our future. Or maybe just something that we can learn from. A little something to look back to.
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