Friday, December 17, 2010, 4:03 AM
Death.
I don't know if this is the right time to write about death. But because death seemed to be manifesting itself to me, I give heed to the subject to write about it.
Death in the episode of Ally Mcbeal.
This episode of Ally Mcbeal came as a shocker.
Billy Thomas died in the court saying how much he loved Ally Mcbeal.
His death was so simple but was touching for me.
As I write this blog, the grandmother of my girlfriend also died and was buried today.
Another person who dies in real life.
Death is calling me to write about it indeed in this blog.
Death, it made me think of the people I love. Someday I will lose them. And I will feel the sadness of losing someone. It will come when death comes - the pain and sadness.
Life is short.
I just know that my time is short because life is short.
If I am to live my life today, I should live it to the fullest.
And if I am to die today..
I will write to let everyone know I'm sorry.
Close encounter with Death.
4 years ago if I'm correct, I almost jump off a building because at that time, I got depressed and I did not feel like living anymore.
I was planning my death for 5 years and I did kill myself and it did happen. I killed myself and that is my entire being.
Everytime people hate me for what I said and done. It feels like dying everytime.
To know that people hate me because of what I said and done.
Death note.
So, if I die today, I just wanna say I'm sorry.
I'm sorry to all the people I have hurt.
For the hate letters that you have read.
For the things that I said.
And I love my family and friends.
Aftermath of Death.
I may be alive but deep inside it still feels like I'm already dead. And sometimes I feel that it is just a matter of time before something bad will happen again. I don't know.
I don't know why I'm still alive. What purpose I should serve for living. But one thing is for sure, love kept me alive. It was my love for the people I will leave behind that kept me alive.
It was indeed love that counts always.
Live and Love.
I just want to live my life to the fullest loving the people I love. Perhaps some may find it unusual if I care and love in an odd way. But that's me when I like and love someone.
Now, if I will die, I want to say I have lived my life well. And I want to meet God and hear Him say "Well done good and faithful servant". I also want to say " I have fight the good fight of faith".
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